52. I'm typing after midnight, so it's February 5: a year now since the death of my father.
53. --the man who taught me what fascism is.
54. The detachment of the scholarly definitions & the taste & smell of the intimate ones.
55. Do we have to be able to define love in order to respond to it.
56. Robert Paxton: "A form of political behavior marked by obsessive preoccupation with community decline, humiliation or victimhood & by compensatory cults of unity, energy & purity, in which a mass-based party of committed nationalist militants, working in uneasy but effective collaboration with traditional elites, abandons democratic liberties & pursues with redemptive violence & without ethical or legal restraints goals of internal cleansing & external expansion."
57. Jean Améry on the Gestapo torture center at Breendonk: "Very quickly one was taken into the 'business room,' of which I have already spoken. The business that was conducted here obviously was a flourishing one."
58. Is it only banal if you've been able to keep far from the smell of it.
59. "It was just a matter of survival, of existing from one day to the next. I remember going to sleep as a girl hearing the Klan ride at night & hearing a lynching & being afraid the house would burn down." #Fascisms
60. Happy birthday, Rosa Parks, The house is burning down. Again. Still.
61. How when Medgar Evers was 14 he saw Willie Tingle dragged through the streets of Decatur Mississippi & shot & hanged for 'insulting a white woman.' How every day on his way to school he passed the scraps of the man's bloody clothes flapping in the tree.
62. How 6 years later he was a US soldier at Normandy.
63. George Guido Lombardi to reporters re Marine Le Pen's visit to the Tower: "the Normandy landing."
64. Améry: "But this still does not mean that the evil they inflicted on me was banal. If one insists on it, they were bureaucrats of torture. And yet, they were also much more. I saw it in their serious, tense faces, which were not swelling, let us say, with sexual-sadistic delight, but concentrated in murderous self-realization. With heart & soul they went about their business, & the name of it was power, dominion over spirit & flesh, orgy of unchecked self-expansion."
64a. "I also have not forgotten that there were moments when I felt a kind of wretched admiration for the agonizing sovereignty they exercised over me. For is not the one who can reduce a person so entirely to a body & a whimpering prey of death a god, or at least, a demigod?"
65. Foucault: "The strategic adversary is fascism. And not only historical fascism, the fascism of Hitler and Mussolini--which was able to mobilize & use the desire of the masses so effectively--but also the fascism in us all, in our heads & in our everyday behavior, the fascism that causes us to love power, to desire the very thing that dominates & exploits us."
66. Gayatri Spivak on post-colonial counter-discourse: a "persistent critique of what you cannot not want."
67. Foucault on the Non-Fascist Life: "Do not fall in love with power."
68. Aimé Césaire, Discourse on Colonialism: "And they wait & they hope; & they hide the truth from themselves...that it is Nazism, yes, but that before they were its victims, they were its accomplices; that they tolerated that Nazism before it was inflicted on them, that they absolved it, shut their eyes to it, legitimized it, because, until then, it had been applied only to non-European peoples..."
69. Ara's text at noon last Saturday, January 28th: "people are being blocked at intl airports and detained at JFK." Day 9.
70. Smiling as I waited on the platform for the train, at the ways I wanted not to go, because I had plans to see my family at 5 & a ticket to hear Chucho Valdés that night.
71. From Lorraine Gordon's autobiography, Alive at the Village Vanguard: "On the morning of Chucho's scheduled opening in June 1999, his visa still had not been approved by the State Department. Yes, Chucho was on a plane to New York from Havana. The problem was getting him off that plane."
72. How all along the A train to the airport people kept getting on with blank pieces of cardboard & black markers.